Staring Myself in the Face

Posted on 23 April 2012

Today I went to my local library. As I sat down at one of the card catalog computers, I found myself staring directly at…my own face. Turns out the library compiles ads for upcoming events/speakers and uses them for the computer screen savers. I watched as my face floated by on the screen (“Meet the author!”) and then faded into something else.

That screen saver serves as a reminder of my May 9 event (Lakewood Library, Lakewood Ohio, 7pm) not only for library patrons who use the computers, but also for me. You see, I need to get to work putting the finishing touches on my presentation. (Do you like how I say “finishing touches” as if I’ve started at all?) I do have a mental map of how it will go down. Let’s just say it will involve tales of rejection, childhood (and adult!) humiliation, dashed expectations, surprises, dreams, hard work, and perseverance. And I’m sure my cats will be mentioned at some point, if not displayed in all their glory in the PowerPoint presentation.

Speaking of cats, I capped off my bizarre library experience by checking out the four most recent issues of Cat Fancy magazine. You heard me right. And in my defense (though I was a little too embarrassed to tell the circulation desk clerk this) they are for research purposes. Yes, research. You can probably connect the dots.

What caught you off guard today?

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16 responses to Staring Myself in the Face

  • Averil Dean says:

    I’m afraid I’ve connected the dots and am quietly organizing an intervention.

    What caught me off guard today was an unkind email. I’ll leave it at that.

  • Sarah W says:

    I was caught off-guard by someone telling me I was completely sane today.

    But I’m more concerned that someone’s upsetting Averil.

    • I’m kind of curious about the situation that would lead to someone calling you sane. That’s sort of not the thing people would think to say unless they were already considering your sanity in the first place. :)

  • Lyra says:

    Cat Fancy! Excellent!
    That must have been such a neat thing to see yourself on the library screen. So much better than a Most Wanted poster, yes?
    And Averil just remember, the less you respond, the less satisfaction they’ll get. Love.

    • When I got home and told Peter that I checked out a bunch of Cat Fancy issues and was a little embarrassed, he said, “And just think — your name and face were probably on the employee’s computer screen when she was helping you. So that makes it doubly embarrassing!” Oh, god. Yes, thanks Peter. Thanks for thinking of that.

  • Erika Marks says:

    Laura, I hope you’ll share some more tips as you get closer…I am presenting my publishing journey to the Writing Club at the high school where my husband teaches and I am so excited, but irrationally nervous. Does this mean I’m old?

    And Averil, never you mind those ugly emails. We’ve got your back, lady–and your front, and your side. So there.

    • I do plan to share tips (or what not to do, after I do it all wrong?) after my presentation. Wish me luck!

    • Teri says:

      Exactly Erika. I used to just wonder what makes people be mean, now I wonder why in the hell anyone would be mean in writing.

      The last time somebody sent me a really mean email, I forwarded it to everyone I knew. So there! I’m not even kidding about that.

  • amyg says:

    you know how excited this makes me, right? ahhh, sweet, sweet cat fancy.

    when you saw that picture of yourself, were you like, “weird, she kinda looks like me?” before immediately realizing it was you? sometimes, i’ll see a reflection of myself and think, “that woman looks like my mom.” and then i realize. and then i have a mini-metaphysical-crisis of sorts.

    and averil–be happy people are mean to you–it means you have something they want. not that that’s something to be happy about, but the fact that you are a “have” vs. a “have not” that can be something to be happy about.

    • Teri says:

      Uh, thanks to AMY G I’m reading “Garden and Gun.” They have dog stories. I’m pretty sure they’re waiting for me to submit something.

      Here’s to Cat Fancy!!!

  • Downith says:

    I love your husband’s helpful comment.

  • lisahgolden says:

    Do I have a stack of Cat Fancy magazines for you! Just tell me where to send them. It’s almost an entire year of the magazine minus some full color posts that now grace the walls of Sophie’s bedroom.

    Also, the cats want you to know that they WOULD get those mice if they were allowed in the garage. Mean Mommy won’t let them out there for fear they’ll escape.

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